I feel like I haven't really been posting any content in here lately. Just little random blurts of what I've got going on, and quizzes, but nothing important really.
Ugh, life seems so busy, and I never have any time, but I'm really not even doing anything. So, what's going on with me? Let's see.
I'm getting really sick of people. Which I feel bad saying, but some of my old friends, I just feel like I've outgrown them. And I feel bad, because some of my friends, that I don't feel connected with, or that I don't even want to see, they haven't changed. I know it's that I have, but I've done things that are for the better.
When I see a 30 yr old friend of mine, that I've known for the last 7 years, and I'm not even really happy to see him, it kind of makes me feel empty inside. But all he does is smoke bud 24/7, go to shows, complain that he can't save money (when he's spending all his money on cheap beer, weed, and concerts), living in some squat, and doing nothing with himself. And he talks about the same hopes he's had for the last 7 years, that he never tries to do anything about. I'm kind of sick of it. It's not that he's done anything wrong, it's that he hasn't done anything.
I feel so rude, for feeling like this. But people need to grow to stay content, when they're not changing, there's no longer any point. And he's so depressed and negative, but so unwilling to do anything about it.
It's depressing, I know I'm at a better place in life. But it's a hollow suspended state. I'm doing things, I want to do things, but I don't really know anybody anymore. And I know if I knew me when I was the person who did get along with John, I wouldn't even like me.
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