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It's 8:00am. I woke up at 7:14am. I went to sleep around 3:00am. I also woke up for a while around 4:00am. Today is going to be a looooooong day.

Casper's over there sleeping, heh, he looks all comfy and cozy, and here I am with circles under my eyes and wet hair (just got out of the shower). It's okay though, had fun last night.

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Okay, so, hopefully my breakfast wakes me up a bit. Having peanut butter and jelly on whole wheat toast, made with natural peanut butter (as in, peanut butter that is really just ground peanuts and nothing else). Figured the protein boost from that would help. Also just took my multi-vitamin, and I'm drinking some Carb Counters milk.

I'm going to be much more careful about the alchohol I consume next time I go to a bar. Somehow I gained one pound over the weekend, and I'm a bit pissed off about it. You know, it's probably a water weight fluctuation, since I'm one of those pathetic bastards that step on the scale everyday, sometimes twice a day, but I'm still going to watch it. Alchohol is loaded with calories. I barely ever eat on the weekends though, so that should make up for it? On Saturday I ate a turkey sandwich and a bowl of clam chowder (or was that on Friday?), and yesterday I had flautas and tortilla chips with salsa, and that's it. Hmmmm. But, on Saturday night I drank 5 kahlua and creams and a Jameson and diet coke, and last night I had a merlot and 3 kahlua and creams. Damned cream, heh, half and half is so fattening.

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Fuck April. Fuck April and Fuck February, I hate them both.

And while we're at it, Fuck July as well.

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I've done something so unspeakably disgusting, well two unspeakably disgusting things, and I'm so disgusted right now and it's so disgusting and fuck it.

On a happier note, there's the beautiful sound of chirping crickets coming from my closet, and there was a beautiful storm tonight. I love the rain. I love the lightening. It was all so beautiful I was practically in tears running through it, because I just couldn't stand how damned beautiful it was. I wish I could just capture something as beautiful as lightening in a jar and keep it with me always. I wish I could be as beautiful as lightening, crashing through the sky and landing in an unpredetermined destination and changing the landscape wherever I hit. I wish I was anywhere but here.