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Apr. 30th, 2008 09:23 amMental Break
I can't wait to get out of town for a few days....it feels like everything is piling up over here. Yesterday was the last in class session for English - I love that class, but I'm glad for the free time. The next three class periods are blocked out for mandatory one on one conferences with the teacher (so if you miss the one you are scheduled for that counts as three absences, hehe, mine is on May 6th at 3:30), but that means two days that I'll be getting out of work at 2:30 and free all afternoon after. May 13th our portfolio is due, and then that is it for that class for the semester.
I don't know how I am going to survive the autumn semester though. I feel like I'm at a breaking point. 40hr workweek in a continuously severely understaffed clinic, plus full time school. I went January and February with no lunch breaks at work, so 9 hour days, plus full time school. I don't even know how I lived. I have zilch by way of personal time, except for the weekends. I think it's taking a physical toll on me, because the stress just sits right on my shoulders, and they start to hurt (something I've never experienced until this job), and I think it's because this job causes me to constantly feel on the defensive and then I start drawing my shoulders up or sitting very rigidly. It's just a constant onslaught of never ending complaining and demands but we don't have the staffing to meet it, and I'm the person at the front receiving all of this. I need to really dedicate myself to my studies, and it makes it impossible. I pulled through with excellent grades this semester, but I practically killed myself to do it, and I can't continue on like this.
On the home front though, at least things are good. I don't get to see Matt as often as I'd like, because I'm never there (I leave at 6:45am, and usually don't get back until 9:30pm), and I feel like my poor kitties and dogs are getting neglected - although I do make sure to play with them every day - but I'm basically happy. Took a bit of a hit yesterday, because Matt received his permanent work schedule, and it's 12:00-9:00, Sunday-Thursday, which means one of the two days I get to spend with him is now a work day for him, so I'll only be able to spend time with him after work on Fridays (I don't have school Fridays, but I don't get home until about 6:00 from work) and then on Saturdays. We're going to be strangers at this point. I wish he was an early riser like I am - we get to bed about the same time, but I wake up at about 5:30am, and he's usually just waking up as I walk out the door. I think if we had breakfast together, then a small visit at night to talk about the day or something, and then hanging out on Saturday it would be a bit better than "goodnight" and "goodbye, I'm off to work now!" all week. I don't know.
I'll enjoy my trip to California over Memorial Day weekend, and come back refreshed hopefully. I'll stick it out at this job until my vacation to Hawaii, and then possibly reevaluate my work situation when I return. Maybe I can just save up loads of money over the summer, and take this next semester off from working and focus on school.
I can't wait to get out of town for a few days....it feels like everything is piling up over here. Yesterday was the last in class session for English - I love that class, but I'm glad for the free time. The next three class periods are blocked out for mandatory one on one conferences with the teacher (so if you miss the one you are scheduled for that counts as three absences, hehe, mine is on May 6th at 3:30), but that means two days that I'll be getting out of work at 2:30 and free all afternoon after. May 13th our portfolio is due, and then that is it for that class for the semester.
I don't know how I am going to survive the autumn semester though. I feel like I'm at a breaking point. 40hr workweek in a continuously severely understaffed clinic, plus full time school. I went January and February with no lunch breaks at work, so 9 hour days, plus full time school. I don't even know how I lived. I have zilch by way of personal time, except for the weekends. I think it's taking a physical toll on me, because the stress just sits right on my shoulders, and they start to hurt (something I've never experienced until this job), and I think it's because this job causes me to constantly feel on the defensive and then I start drawing my shoulders up or sitting very rigidly. It's just a constant onslaught of never ending complaining and demands but we don't have the staffing to meet it, and I'm the person at the front receiving all of this. I need to really dedicate myself to my studies, and it makes it impossible. I pulled through with excellent grades this semester, but I practically killed myself to do it, and I can't continue on like this.
On the home front though, at least things are good. I don't get to see Matt as often as I'd like, because I'm never there (I leave at 6:45am, and usually don't get back until 9:30pm), and I feel like my poor kitties and dogs are getting neglected - although I do make sure to play with them every day - but I'm basically happy. Took a bit of a hit yesterday, because Matt received his permanent work schedule, and it's 12:00-9:00, Sunday-Thursday, which means one of the two days I get to spend with him is now a work day for him, so I'll only be able to spend time with him after work on Fridays (I don't have school Fridays, but I don't get home until about 6:00 from work) and then on Saturdays. We're going to be strangers at this point. I wish he was an early riser like I am - we get to bed about the same time, but I wake up at about 5:30am, and he's usually just waking up as I walk out the door. I think if we had breakfast together, then a small visit at night to talk about the day or something, and then hanging out on Saturday it would be a bit better than "goodnight" and "goodbye, I'm off to work now!" all week. I don't know.
I'll enjoy my trip to California over Memorial Day weekend, and come back refreshed hopefully. I'll stick it out at this job until my vacation to Hawaii, and then possibly reevaluate my work situation when I return. Maybe I can just save up loads of money over the summer, and take this next semester off from working and focus on school.
