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velvetechosSo I keep dwelling. Ugh.
Death seems so large, something so uncomprehendable. I try to imagine just what can cause it, at what point does your body actually just decide to give out. What factors contribute and what goes through your mind. Is it something you realize, if you're in the situation where it happens naturally? Is it a thought, then an end? I try to picture Ace in the dog's mouth, a little kitten, and his body just giving out. Did he understand? I know, I know, animals don't think on a personal level or whatever, is supposedly the truth, but it's not one I neccesarily agree with, when it comes to most mammals. A personal level would be making "I" statements, but for them it is more of a collective thought, they don't recognize themselves. Not sure how to put it into words, but I know what I'm trying to say. It's just impossible for me to register, one minute you're cuddling and playing with somebody, and taking their picture, and then you go out, you come back, and find out one of your other beloved pets has mauled them. And in your mind, it's surreal, and uncomprehendable, but it's reality unfortunately. And then I remember my dad back in February, and that's not comprehendable as well. It just seems like it's up there above my head somewhere, because I can't register it in my mind. I can't grab that one moment, I can't figure out what happened and how, and I keep trying to.
I'm rambling
Death seems so large, something so uncomprehendable. I try to imagine just what can cause it, at what point does your body actually just decide to give out. What factors contribute and what goes through your mind. Is it something you realize, if you're in the situation where it happens naturally? Is it a thought, then an end? I try to picture Ace in the dog's mouth, a little kitten, and his body just giving out. Did he understand? I know, I know, animals don't think on a personal level or whatever, is supposedly the truth, but it's not one I neccesarily agree with, when it comes to most mammals. A personal level would be making "I" statements, but for them it is more of a collective thought, they don't recognize themselves. Not sure how to put it into words, but I know what I'm trying to say. It's just impossible for me to register, one minute you're cuddling and playing with somebody, and taking their picture, and then you go out, you come back, and find out one of your other beloved pets has mauled them. And in your mind, it's surreal, and uncomprehendable, but it's reality unfortunately. And then I remember my dad back in February, and that's not comprehendable as well. It just seems like it's up there above my head somewhere, because I can't register it in my mind. I can't grab that one moment, I can't figure out what happened and how, and I keep trying to.
I'm rambling
