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velvetechos) wrote2003-02-01 12:29 pm
velvetechos) wrote2003-02-01 12:29 pm
Dreams
Ok I just awoke from a very odd dream, and apparently a very deep sleep, seeing as the phone always wakes me up, and it was right next to me, but this time, Martin called while I was asleep, a few times, and I didn't wake up.
I'm not quite sure of the order in this dream, and may of even been two dreams, but here's what I got.
First I'm with Martin, and I'm walking around a school in Idaho. I don't belong to the classes or anything, it's younger handicapped students. One of them stands up, and looks at me. Apparently she's deaf, and she recognizes me from something on the internet. She can read lips, and she tells me some long number, saying that it's her. I smile and acknowledge her. I keep walking around and Martin wants to leave, so I go with him, telling him I want to say bye to the girl first. I really like her, she gives off a kind and comforting emotion. I wave at somebody, and say bye, thinking it's her, the person turns into an old and friendly woman, who says "No, she's over there". I reluctantly said goodbye, then walked outside with Martin.
There's a mote around the school, not all water, but it's muddy. He doesn't want to walk through it, but he does with me. He falls into the mud, and I keep walking, which angers him. There's a group of kids that help him out, all teenagers about his age (I just turned 21 and Martin just turned 18), they help him out, but he glares at them and walks towards me. For some reason he's wearing a white tank top and black sweats, he's not dirty from the mud, and his hair is half in a bunch of small braids, half unbraided. I grab the strap on his shirt and it rips, and he continues to walk with me. We arrive at a store that is selling dradles, and he wants to buy two. It turns out that two would cost $25, and he looks dissapointed, and can only take one. We both start spinning some, a few of them are in animal shapes, and spin on little spikes. I pick up a large dinosaur one, all the tops we are spinning are black, and there's a wig on the dinosaur, a white one, and I pull it off.
Then we are at a party, which, oddly enough, is at an old friend from elementary school's house. The party was full of familiar, yet unfamliar faces. At one point, I went outside, and when I came back in, Martin had gotten a tattoo of Toucan Sam on his ankle, which took up the entire side of his foot. At another point, I was sitting outside with a group of girls, and I broke a chair. Nothing else too significant at the party.
In the next patch of dream I remember, I was on the telephone, calling a movie theatre. I wish I could remember what movie it was I was supposed to be seeing. Anyways, when I called my ex fiance answered the phone, saying I was supposed to have been there to meet him. I hung up on him, I wanted to go to the movie with Martin. Then I looked outside the window I was near, my sister was in the room with me, and I started freaking out saying "Cheryl! Is that Dad in the backyard?" Over and over again. The backyard was very green and pretty, and he was walking around it with his brother, they didn't seem able to hear us. Then he came walking through the door, with some papers, telling us that he forgot to tell us to get our names changed. He handed me a paper, in which he had chosen a new name for Cheryl, but he didn't want me to change mine. I ran out the door with the papers, to a minister's house, and told him about the change. He looked at the papers, and looked alarmed, told me he'd send it out to all countries, and that he couldn't do anything about it. Then I woke up.
Anybody care to take a stab at the meaning of this?
I'm not quite sure of the order in this dream, and may of even been two dreams, but here's what I got.
First I'm with Martin, and I'm walking around a school in Idaho. I don't belong to the classes or anything, it's younger handicapped students. One of them stands up, and looks at me. Apparently she's deaf, and she recognizes me from something on the internet. She can read lips, and she tells me some long number, saying that it's her. I smile and acknowledge her. I keep walking around and Martin wants to leave, so I go with him, telling him I want to say bye to the girl first. I really like her, she gives off a kind and comforting emotion. I wave at somebody, and say bye, thinking it's her, the person turns into an old and friendly woman, who says "No, she's over there". I reluctantly said goodbye, then walked outside with Martin.
There's a mote around the school, not all water, but it's muddy. He doesn't want to walk through it, but he does with me. He falls into the mud, and I keep walking, which angers him. There's a group of kids that help him out, all teenagers about his age (I just turned 21 and Martin just turned 18), they help him out, but he glares at them and walks towards me. For some reason he's wearing a white tank top and black sweats, he's not dirty from the mud, and his hair is half in a bunch of small braids, half unbraided. I grab the strap on his shirt and it rips, and he continues to walk with me. We arrive at a store that is selling dradles, and he wants to buy two. It turns out that two would cost $25, and he looks dissapointed, and can only take one. We both start spinning some, a few of them are in animal shapes, and spin on little spikes. I pick up a large dinosaur one, all the tops we are spinning are black, and there's a wig on the dinosaur, a white one, and I pull it off.
Then we are at a party, which, oddly enough, is at an old friend from elementary school's house. The party was full of familiar, yet unfamliar faces. At one point, I went outside, and when I came back in, Martin had gotten a tattoo of Toucan Sam on his ankle, which took up the entire side of his foot. At another point, I was sitting outside with a group of girls, and I broke a chair. Nothing else too significant at the party.
In the next patch of dream I remember, I was on the telephone, calling a movie theatre. I wish I could remember what movie it was I was supposed to be seeing. Anyways, when I called my ex fiance answered the phone, saying I was supposed to have been there to meet him. I hung up on him, I wanted to go to the movie with Martin. Then I looked outside the window I was near, my sister was in the room with me, and I started freaking out saying "Cheryl! Is that Dad in the backyard?" Over and over again. The backyard was very green and pretty, and he was walking around it with his brother, they didn't seem able to hear us. Then he came walking through the door, with some papers, telling us that he forgot to tell us to get our names changed. He handed me a paper, in which he had chosen a new name for Cheryl, but he didn't want me to change mine. I ran out the door with the papers, to a minister's house, and told him about the change. He looked at the papers, and looked alarmed, told me he'd send it out to all countries, and that he couldn't do anything about it. Then I woke up.
Anybody care to take a stab at the meaning of this?
Completely amatuer stabbing.. ;>
I think the school part is a random flash - unless to you it might symbolize your desire to help people (being a P.O. is actually helping people, so you do want to)...
Same with the draidles. No deep symbolization there - I remember here at almost every store on Castro they were selling some with interesting little drawings on them instead of Hebrew letters. You might have seen one, wanted it, and lacked money for it at the time.
The muddy waters and Martin. THAT means something. Your thinking about him is clouded, but him coming out without dirty clothes means that it's becoming less so.. and/or that you know, in your heart, that his feelings for you are clear.
Toucan Sam on his leg, I can't help you with that. I just have no idea. That's the scariest part of the dream to me ;>
Ex fiancee answering the phone - our dads. That's the part I bet spooked you out?
The talk and Tarot reading you, Cheryl, and I did around the table involved both talk about your ex, and talk about your Dad walking in a beautiful garden. (I mentioned that guy who was dead 3 times and came back to tell about the afterlife.. then Cheryl mentioned Carlos Casteneda or whoever...) Then we all became gravely concerned over my father's health. (I've been nagging incessantly, no worries - but I might need you to come down here and help me to bodily take him to a doctor's office!!) So I think you're worried, right now, about losing my Dad.. but you also know that when that DOES happen, both of our Dads will be walking in that garden, talking.
Your Dad's renaming is a signal, to me, of you KNOWING that your Dad is proud of both of you and how you're doing, and a name change usually indicates a huge change in life (marriage, adoption, etc.). So you know that you're growing and becoming a different person, but your father knows (and so do I) that Cheryl has come REALLY far this year. You have always been mature and level headed, with your shit together. That is something to be PROUD of. Cheryl, well, didn't always. *cough*. But now she does. So it was a message that Cheryl has grown up, and you're doing beautifully, as you've always done (hard being perfect, isn't it? ;> ).
I don't see it as being a premonition of upcoming disaster in any way - I think it was your way of working out different things in your head, and possibly, you know, your Dad letting you know how proud he is of you both.
Hope this helped?
Re: Completely amatuer stabbing.. ;>